13.10.'91. Istanbul



OK Lord, You win again...
(A little revolt)


Listen Lord, you can't complain, I was doing fine
Maybe not always but most of the time
I do respect your law and order
But I fear, I'm just getting nowhere

I was born, as I was told, wasn't I?
And step by step I grow old, it is all right
I've learned my lessons well
I saw too little heaven, too much hell

Am I being (You think) unfair? It may be the case
Did I ever say I'm the pride of human race?
Go ahead, admit You made me damn feeble
And let me tempted by a lot of evil

Master, can't you see I really need a rest
So give me a break, and please no more test
I hit the floor far too often, let's put the record strait
It's hard and getting harder to stand up again before eight

Didn't I serve You faithfully, humbly?
Wasn't I though enough for a man made of clay?
So where is my reward, Father Almighty?
Or at least your great mercy, would You mind to say?

Don't get official, not again this time skip that line
No eternity stuff, I want now what's mine
Do you know that at all what is hunger, what's thirst?
Do you know for God's sake what is bad, and what's worse?

Don't call me beloved child, unless you're pulling my leg
Blabble less, give more, Your Highness, don't let me beg
Sometimes I can't distinguish a night from a day
And you still think I shall endlessly obey?


 
Goddamn it Holy Dad, pardon me, I quit
The clown leaves the stage, thanks, no more shit
Where is my fair share, kindly keep your promised land
In just half a wink I want a gentle hand


- sobering SILENCE -


Okay Lord, You win again, there was never a chance I stood
If you must be hard on me, it is just understood
I'm back to work, cheerful as ever Boss
Let me find rushingly, and carry further my cross


Show me, please the rainbow of Hope, let is shine
For just a moment or two - thanks! everything's fine
Let it be by your wish, I shall accept Your will
Bless me with the task of struggling uphill...